Why Bad@ss Catholic?

Over the past few years, I have heard it emphasized from many of my peers, mentors, friends, and family that I am a "bad@ss"...but also a good Catholic role model. I was always left wondering how I could be both??

I've been told that I have a heart of gold and an abnormal amount of empathy. I am known for my kindness and ability to connect with people regardless of who they are. I have always been proud of that quality but always wondered how people can see it so clearly. I have always had the desire to grow in faith and learn everything there is to know, which inspired me to study Catholic Studies at UST. Not only in my classes did I start to learn more about the faith, but also joining the Army and going through basic training, it strengthened my faith more than I ever thought it would.

I am also known for keeping my emotions inside and never letting them out. I hated being vulnerable in front of others, so I wouldn't even cry. Because of this, I've developed a "tough-guy" mentality which has made me feel bulletproof. This bulletproof feeling comes in handy when I am navigating periods of growth and change in my life. Times where I had to make scary transitions or grow as an individual whether that was in faith or independence. My bulletproof mentality was my substitute for confidence. It causes me to take on challenges that seem daunting to most, like joining the Army, going to basic training (and enjoying it!!), or even going up in front of hundreds of my peers to give my testimony. Some see it as completely crazy, others see it as strength, but that is where my "bad@ss" nickname came from. I am now able to accept that just because I'm striving to be a good Christian, and to lead a good example for others, it doesn't mean that I can't still have a bad@ss side and fully own it.

What I have realized recently is that it is God walking with me through all of these moments when I feel bulletproof. Because of the moments when I don't feel tough or unstoppable, I know for sure that I am starting to turn away from the most loving and protective Father.

I was never thrilled about that "nickname" given to me until I realized I can be both a "bad@ss" and a faithful Catholic at the same time.